My reason to believe. My testimony that the Holy Spirit resides in me is because I have heard Him.
I have shared this before on other peoples Substack and I hope by sharing, others can see how real He is and how much He wants us to reach out to Him.
In 1989 I was committed to a psychiatric hospital on a three day police hold. What law did I violate? It was illegal to attempt to kill yourself. So it was mandatory to do a psychological evaluation. Their conclusion was I wasnāt mentally ill, I just had a drug problem. Thatās right. Iām an addict. In recovery now for 18 years. But back then I didnāt know how to stop. The guilt and shame was more than I could handle. I also knew if given the opportunity, I would most likely attempt suicide again.
God was with me and I didnāt realize it until later. Sometimes he puts someone in your life for a brief moment and thatās what happened. There was a girl who had been in the same situation as I was, but she had a plan. She was going to a place called Baker House. In patient treatment. I knew then that was what I needed. I stayed in that awful place for 5 weeks waiting for a bed to open up.
The night before I was to leave, a fantastic thunder and lightning storm rolled in. The kind of the storm that darkens an afternoon sky. I had decided to lay down in my room and listen to the wind blow and the thunder roll. I was thinking about where I was going and I told God that I was afraid and I didnāt want to fail. My children deserved to have their mom back and the doubt was creeping in along with the fear of the unknown. And I heard, āI m hereā and the peace that ran through my body was palpable. I knew then and there that I was going to be okay. He was with me then and He is with me now. I have grandchildren who have never seen their grandmother loaded. I couldnāt stay clean without Him. That day I gave my will and my life to Him. I couldnāt, He would if asked and I let Him. I canāt be more grateful for my relationship with Him. He loves us even when we donāt love ourselves or when we hit rock bottom and just knowing He was with me when I needed Him and when I was living a sinful life that goes along with addiction, meant everything to me. He forgave me. He guides me through my life and I am dead without Him.
I donāt know if this will resonate with anyone who reads this. I pray it does.
Deborah...this is truly an amazing testimony. God is so not finished with you. He is laying a path for you to bless so many lives. Find your secret place...go there, Jesus wants to share with you a continuation of your incredible journey.
Iām a work in progress. Living with faith is what has made the difference. I know I will go to bed sober and I know I will wake up remembering everything I did last night. His work in my life is amazing and although I havenāt used for years, if I think I can have a drink or go looking for a different drug, those arenāt my thoughts and I simply play the tape all the way through to the end and I know my disease is progressing even if I havenāt used for all these years I wonāt pick up where I left off. It will be far more advanced.
Thereās something Iād like to address here is what the Biden team is doing. In 2012 I was doing my clinical at our local mental health clinic so I could be certified for addiction counseling and what I heard troubled me. Harm reduction. I heard it then and I here the same thing today. Itās shocking to me that people who are directors of drug treatment facilities have adopted. Itās based on a belief that if a person was able to minimize their use and use responsibly then they were successful in their treatment for the addict. Heck, I canāt tell you how many times Iāve lied to myself thinking I could lessen my intake and all would well. There couldnāt be anything more deceiving than that concept. If one is truly an addict, this was nothing more than giving them the OK to continue to use and ultimately people weāre going to die. First, the requirement for people to attend 12 step meetings were no longer required. If they failed a drug test, then they would have to start their outpatient treatment over again. There were clients who had been in the system for years. By removing required meeting attendance, they were missing out on a key part of treatment because the support system was eliminated. The giving back by doing service work whether it was chairing a meeting or getting involved with the business end of their home group was gone. But even more importantly, the relationship with God was cut out of their treatment plan. Thatās what 12 steps are based on. Admitting that they couldnāt stop on their own, asking God to remove the desire to use and letting Him do so are the first three steps in any 12 step program. Just like what has been done in our schools. God was removed.
I saw the writing on the walls and look at where we are today with people dying from the disease of addiction. Harm reduction will never work if the person is truly an addict. I think it is a planned attack. States have loosened their restrictions on hard drugs because itās more humane to keep them addicted and dying. Most without ever knowing the gospel. Without understanding how He could work in their lives to make them a part of something greater than themselves. I canāt, He can, and I let Him. I know if I were to relapse, it would be because I had stopped doing what has kept me clean for all these years.
People, ānormies ā who have never had an addiction think they have the answers. I know Iām a miracle. I would be dead in spirit and body had I bought into this Harm Reduction. I live by faith, Iāve been blessed by grace and I will die clean. It saddens me to think of all those who have lost their lives to addiction because of harm reduction, which Iām certain was brought to the forefront by those who do not want others suffering from addiction to live. Itās a way to rid the world of what those in charge believe are worthless people.
Thank you for your daily devotional and the prayers you do. I love praying them and I archive them to read again and again. We need more people like yourself who bring these messages of love, grace, hope and compassion of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ š
My reason to believe. My testimony that the Holy Spirit resides in me is because I have heard Him.
I have shared this before on other peoples Substack and I hope by sharing, others can see how real He is and how much He wants us to reach out to Him.
In 1989 I was committed to a psychiatric hospital on a three day police hold. What law did I violate? It was illegal to attempt to kill yourself. So it was mandatory to do a psychological evaluation. Their conclusion was I wasnāt mentally ill, I just had a drug problem. Thatās right. Iām an addict. In recovery now for 18 years. But back then I didnāt know how to stop. The guilt and shame was more than I could handle. I also knew if given the opportunity, I would most likely attempt suicide again.
God was with me and I didnāt realize it until later. Sometimes he puts someone in your life for a brief moment and thatās what happened. There was a girl who had been in the same situation as I was, but she had a plan. She was going to a place called Baker House. In patient treatment. I knew then that was what I needed. I stayed in that awful place for 5 weeks waiting for a bed to open up.
The night before I was to leave, a fantastic thunder and lightning storm rolled in. The kind of the storm that darkens an afternoon sky. I had decided to lay down in my room and listen to the wind blow and the thunder roll. I was thinking about where I was going and I told God that I was afraid and I didnāt want to fail. My children deserved to have their mom back and the doubt was creeping in along with the fear of the unknown. And I heard, āI m hereā and the peace that ran through my body was palpable. I knew then and there that I was going to be okay. He was with me then and He is with me now. I have grandchildren who have never seen their grandmother loaded. I couldnāt stay clean without Him. That day I gave my will and my life to Him. I couldnāt, He would if asked and I let Him. I canāt be more grateful for my relationship with Him. He loves us even when we donāt love ourselves or when we hit rock bottom and just knowing He was with me when I needed Him and when I was living a sinful life that goes along with addiction, meant everything to me. He forgave me. He guides me through my life and I am dead without Him.
I donāt know if this will resonate with anyone who reads this. I pray it does.
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Deborah...this is truly an amazing testimony. God is so not finished with you. He is laying a path for you to bless so many lives. Find your secret place...go there, Jesus wants to share with you a continuation of your incredible journey.
Iām a work in progress. Living with faith is what has made the difference. I know I will go to bed sober and I know I will wake up remembering everything I did last night. His work in my life is amazing and although I havenāt used for years, if I think I can have a drink or go looking for a different drug, those arenāt my thoughts and I simply play the tape all the way through to the end and I know my disease is progressing even if I havenāt used for all these years I wonāt pick up where I left off. It will be far more advanced.
Thereās something Iād like to address here is what the Biden team is doing. In 2012 I was doing my clinical at our local mental health clinic so I could be certified for addiction counseling and what I heard troubled me. Harm reduction. I heard it then and I here the same thing today. Itās shocking to me that people who are directors of drug treatment facilities have adopted. Itās based on a belief that if a person was able to minimize their use and use responsibly then they were successful in their treatment for the addict. Heck, I canāt tell you how many times Iāve lied to myself thinking I could lessen my intake and all would well. There couldnāt be anything more deceiving than that concept. If one is truly an addict, this was nothing more than giving them the OK to continue to use and ultimately people weāre going to die. First, the requirement for people to attend 12 step meetings were no longer required. If they failed a drug test, then they would have to start their outpatient treatment over again. There were clients who had been in the system for years. By removing required meeting attendance, they were missing out on a key part of treatment because the support system was eliminated. The giving back by doing service work whether it was chairing a meeting or getting involved with the business end of their home group was gone. But even more importantly, the relationship with God was cut out of their treatment plan. Thatās what 12 steps are based on. Admitting that they couldnāt stop on their own, asking God to remove the desire to use and letting Him do so are the first three steps in any 12 step program. Just like what has been done in our schools. God was removed.
I saw the writing on the walls and look at where we are today with people dying from the disease of addiction. Harm reduction will never work if the person is truly an addict. I think it is a planned attack. States have loosened their restrictions on hard drugs because itās more humane to keep them addicted and dying. Most without ever knowing the gospel. Without understanding how He could work in their lives to make them a part of something greater than themselves. I canāt, He can, and I let Him. I know if I were to relapse, it would be because I had stopped doing what has kept me clean for all these years.
People, ānormies ā who have never had an addiction think they have the answers. I know Iām a miracle. I would be dead in spirit and body had I bought into this Harm Reduction. I live by faith, Iāve been blessed by grace and I will die clean. It saddens me to think of all those who have lost their lives to addiction because of harm reduction, which Iām certain was brought to the forefront by those who do not want others suffering from addiction to live. Itās a way to rid the world of what those in charge believe are worthless people.
Thank you for your daily devotional and the prayers you do. I love praying them and I archive them to read again and again. We need more people like yourself who bring these messages of love, grace, hope and compassion of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ š
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